Salam and Peace to All...
Let's just say that I'm a very greedy person
Or an over sensitive person
I really don't care anymore
It is the year of Tiger in chinese calendar
I was born in 1986... I'm a Tiger
I heard this a lot
"It's the year of Tiger... You're going to get lucky"
And I'm tired of believing it
(Jgn salah faham k... It's not something wrong to dream)
I really hope this year, 2010, is a lucky year for me
But seems like it's not
Ok... I know some good things did happen
But all the depressing things took those happiness away
Let's forget about the simple things
(Those yg people told me "benda2 remeh")
Sorry that I'm such a sensitive person
But I do care about those stuff
Let's talk about more complicated thing
I've been really down lately...
(Bukan lately kot... Mcm dah mmg xde soul dari awal thn lg)
Don't have to bring up the 'so yesterday' news right
So, I'm just going to talk about the recent one
It's been bothering me a lot
Feels like the world had turn his back on me
It's a test given by the Al-Mighty
(Sedar... Allah takkan uji hambaNya dgn ujian yg tak mampu dihadapi)
Always keep that in mind... As a reminder
Coz I'm not that strong you know
I'm easily influenced by others
I'm scared that I will blame Him one day
The enemies never give up to drag you away from the right path... Right?
(Alhamdulillah... Dia masih kuatkan Iman n hati aku)
There's this one person
A close but not so close one
I owe that person a lot... Not financially
(Take note of that ok... NOT FINANCIALLY)
Let's just say that person help me a lot when I was in need
Call me Miss Over Sensitive
I was really hurt by his words lately
I know that it's all just some jokes
They always been interesting jokes for him
Hey... People might think that we're close
But the truth is that we are NOT
You don't know me that well to joke around me like that
Does it ever come across your thought that I...
Yes, ME, might get hurt and humiliated by your jokes
There are things that you shouldn't use as your jokes
I was really hurt
Both my heart and my pride
Honestly, if I'm not this desperate...
(Yup, now I consider myself DESPERATE)
I would love to end this
If this ends... I think we'll get back to normal
I really wish that I can talk about this to someone
But I guess... I have NO ONE???
Figure that out years ago
Glad I decided not to close down this blog
Well, I mentioned this before
I really don't care that nobody reads my blog
I just assume that I'm pouring my heart out to the lappy... Lol~
You know what... Don't be judgemental
Never be one.
Especially towards someone you don't really know
You might think you know them enough
But people do keep secrets from others
There are things that we just can't talk about
You might envy people that always smile and cheerful
Always inspire and support other people
Seems like they don't have any problem at all
But you'll never know
Maybe deep down inside, they're hurting...
Hurting more than you can ever think off
It's just that they don't want to be a burden to other people
They thought...
"Other people has bigger problem than mine... Mine is actually nothing"
Keeping those dark and bloody feelings to themselves...
I really think that although their problem is not as big as yours
They are hurting more
At least you can talk to them... They don't mind
But they don't have that privillage...
Think people... Think...
I know I used to say we need to be selfish to survive this life
But be selfish and never hurt others
At least try not to hurt others...
Enough said...
I'm off.
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Dear God,
Help me... Please... Right now I'm begging you.
Give me a piece of your love
And a piece of your luck
Not that I'm complaining...
I'm just hurting so much... I really can't stand it anymore.
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