2010... Till now... What A Year...

Salam and Peace to All...

Let's just say that I'm a very greedy person

Or an over sensitive person

I really don't care anymore

It is the year of Tiger in chinese calendar

I was born in 1986... I'm a Tiger

I heard this a lot

"It's the year of Tiger... You're going to get lucky"

And I'm tired of believing it

(Jgn salah faham k... It's not something wrong to dream)

I really hope this year, 2010, is a lucky year for me

But seems like it's not

Ok... I know some good things did happen

But all the depressing things took those happiness away

Let's forget about the simple things

(Those yg people told me "benda2 remeh")

Sorry that I'm such a sensitive person

But I do care about those stuff

Let's talk about more complicated thing

I've been really down lately...

(Bukan lately kot... Mcm dah mmg xde soul dari awal thn lg)

Don't have to bring up the 'so yesterday' news right

So, I'm just going to talk about the recent one

It's been bothering me a lot

Feels like the world had turn his back on me

It's a test given by the Al-Mighty

(Sedar... Allah takkan uji hambaNya dgn ujian yg tak mampu dihadapi)

Always keep that in mind... As a reminder

Coz I'm not that strong you know

I'm easily influenced by others

I'm scared that I will blame Him one day

The enemies never give up to drag you away from the right path... Right?

(Alhamdulillah... Dia masih kuatkan Iman n hati aku)

There's this one person

A close but not so close one

I owe that person a lot... Not financially

(Take note of that ok... NOT FINANCIALLY)

Let's just say that person help me a lot when I was in need

Call me Miss Over Sensitive

I was really hurt by his words lately

I know that it's all just some jokes

They always been interesting jokes for him

Hey... People might think that we're close

But the truth is that we are NOT

You don't know me that well to joke around me like that

Does it ever come across your thought that I...

Yes, ME, might get hurt and humiliated by your jokes

There are things that you shouldn't use as your jokes

I was really hurt

Both my heart and my pride

Honestly, if I'm not this desperate...

(Yup, now I consider myself DESPERATE)

I would love to end this

If this ends... I think we'll get back to normal

I really wish that I can talk about this to someone

But I guess... I have NO ONE???

Figure that out years ago

Glad I decided not to close down this blog

Well, I mentioned this before

I really don't care that nobody reads my blog

I just assume that I'm pouring my heart out to the lappy... Lol~

You know what... Don't be judgemental

Never be one.

Especially towards someone you don't really know

You might think you know them enough

But people do keep secrets from others

There are things that we just can't talk about

You might envy people that always smile and cheerful

Always inspire and support other people

Seems like they don't have any problem at all

But you'll never know

Maybe deep down inside, they're hurting...

Hurting more than you can ever think off

It's just that they don't want to be a burden to other people

They thought...

"Other people has bigger problem than mine... Mine is actually nothing"

Keeping those dark and bloody feelings to themselves...

I really think that  although their problem is not as big as yours

They are hurting more

At least you can talk to them... They don't mind

But they don't have that privillage...

Think people... Think...

I know I used to say we need to be selfish to survive this life

But be selfish and never hurt others

At least try not to hurt others...

Enough said...

I'm off.

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Dear God,

Help me... Please... Right now I'm begging you.

Give me a piece of your love

And a piece of your luck

Not that I'm complaining...

I'm just hurting so much... I really can't stand it anymore.

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