2010... Till now... What A Year...

Salam and Peace to All...

Let's just say that I'm a very greedy person

Or an over sensitive person

I really don't care anymore

It is the year of Tiger in chinese calendar

I was born in 1986... I'm a Tiger

I heard this a lot

"It's the year of Tiger... You're going to get lucky"

And I'm tired of believing it

(Jgn salah faham k... It's not something wrong to dream)

I really hope this year, 2010, is a lucky year for me

But seems like it's not

Ok... I know some good things did happen

But all the depressing things took those happiness away

Let's forget about the simple things

(Those yg people told me "benda2 remeh")

Sorry that I'm such a sensitive person

But I do care about those stuff

Let's talk about more complicated thing

I've been really down lately...

(Bukan lately kot... Mcm dah mmg xde soul dari awal thn lg)

Don't have to bring up the 'so yesterday' news right

So, I'm just going to talk about the recent one

It's been bothering me a lot

Feels like the world had turn his back on me

It's a test given by the Al-Mighty

(Sedar... Allah takkan uji hambaNya dgn ujian yg tak mampu dihadapi)

Always keep that in mind... As a reminder

Coz I'm not that strong you know

I'm easily influenced by others

I'm scared that I will blame Him one day

The enemies never give up to drag you away from the right path... Right?

(Alhamdulillah... Dia masih kuatkan Iman n hati aku)

There's this one person

A close but not so close one

I owe that person a lot... Not financially

(Take note of that ok... NOT FINANCIALLY)

Let's just say that person help me a lot when I was in need

Call me Miss Over Sensitive

I was really hurt by his words lately

I know that it's all just some jokes

They always been interesting jokes for him

Hey... People might think that we're close

But the truth is that we are NOT

You don't know me that well to joke around me like that

Does it ever come across your thought that I...

Yes, ME, might get hurt and humiliated by your jokes

There are things that you shouldn't use as your jokes

I was really hurt

Both my heart and my pride

Honestly, if I'm not this desperate...

(Yup, now I consider myself DESPERATE)

I would love to end this

If this ends... I think we'll get back to normal

I really wish that I can talk about this to someone

But I guess... I have NO ONE???

Figure that out years ago

Glad I decided not to close down this blog

Well, I mentioned this before

I really don't care that nobody reads my blog

I just assume that I'm pouring my heart out to the lappy... Lol~

You know what... Don't be judgemental

Never be one.

Especially towards someone you don't really know

You might think you know them enough

But people do keep secrets from others

There are things that we just can't talk about

You might envy people that always smile and cheerful

Always inspire and support other people

Seems like they don't have any problem at all

But you'll never know

Maybe deep down inside, they're hurting...

Hurting more than you can ever think off

It's just that they don't want to be a burden to other people

They thought...

"Other people has bigger problem than mine... Mine is actually nothing"

Keeping those dark and bloody feelings to themselves...

I really think that  although their problem is not as big as yours

They are hurting more

At least you can talk to them... They don't mind

But they don't have that privillage...

Think people... Think...

I know I used to say we need to be selfish to survive this life

But be selfish and never hurt others

At least try not to hurt others...

Enough said...

I'm off.

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Dear God,

Help me... Please... Right now I'm begging you.

Give me a piece of your love

And a piece of your luck

Not that I'm complaining...

I'm just hurting so much... I really can't stand it anymore.

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Happy Birthday

Salam and Peace to All...

Ok, I'm late. I know that

This is supposed to be posted yesterday

But still... I wanna post it.

Saengil Chukkae Lee Hyuk Jae~

May God bless you
Please be happy and remember...
ELFs will always be with you

I remember reading a post by my friend in FB yesterday
They actually went to celebrate our beloved Hyuk Jae a.k.a. Eunhyuk's birthday
Complete with a cake... And karaoke session of SJ songs
So, I guess, I'm not as fanatic as they are
(But I don't mind doing that if I have friends like that... lol~)

Next is...

Happy Birthday
~Hazu~
~Ayu~

Wow... time sure goes by at a fast rate these days
We're going to be 24 this year

(Can't wait for December to arrive... Hahaha...)

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Happy Birthday to You
Happy Birthday to You
Happy Birthday to my dear friends
Happy Birthday to You

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April Fool or April Fools...

Salam and Peace to All...

It's 1st of April

After a year, the day to prank others arrive once again

Not that I prank anyone today

Haha...

But would love to do that again.

I remember my school days

April Fool is a fun day

Especially since my friends are not that cruel

Just  some simple pranks that would make your day

Right now, I'm in my office

As usually, feeling a bit bored

I do have lots to do

But I just feel bored

Wonder why~

Sigh...

I remember all the pranks that I've been through

They are all just words

Might hurt someone but now, I guess, I'm fine with them

In fact, I missed those moments

Some people might not remember coz they are just a plain prank

But when the time comes, you'll remember

Today, 1st April 2010

I really miss my friends

Especially from my secondary school

5 years together...

It's a treasure

Cannot be compared

Every single of them bring a single meaning in my life

My life would never be the same without you guys...

You made me who I am

And I'm not going to regret that...

APRIL FOOL EVERYONE

LET'S ENJOY THE DAY

One day, we might turn back and laugh at this day

This moment...

I'm out~

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Live life as there is no tomorrow

Treasure what you have

You never know when you'll lose them

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Random

Salam and Peace to All...

Well, there's nothing to say.

Just feels like it's been a long time.

I used to love updating my blog.

But now, I prefer reading someone else's blog.

Today is the 30th of March

Although it is late...

Sheng Ri Kuai Le

My dear Sis

It's weird that we didn't celebrate it together this year

But that's what happen when u're married

You have another family

But know this...

No matter where you are

We'll always pray that you get the best of everything

For your health and for you comfort...

Oh ya... We're moving...

By we, I mean our company

All of the bosses are extremely busy these days

It's hard to see them in the office

Always visiting the new office to supervise the renovation and everything

It's going to be fun

I'll get to sit with the others in the new office

No longer isolated

Haha... (Not that i really care)

Ok, one bad thing about this whole moving office matter

I need to work on 3 Saturdays this month

It is on the 3rd, 10th and 24th of March

The bad thing is not about working on Saturday

It is all about having to break my promise

(Really hate that... T_T)

TTSians...

I'm truly very sorry.

I wish I can do something about this

But I can't go back and watch BTHJ

The very first...

Bangsawan Tuah Hang Jebat

I was really looking forward to it

And it is so disappointing to know that I can't

Stage it well...

Although it is the first time for TTS staging this kind of play

I believe that you guys can do it

You guys were born for this

Give you any task and you'll complete them

So...

TTSians, Good Luck

It is almost 2 weeks since I went to SJ Super Show

They really have a way to make people crazy

(In a good way... I mean it)

I've been watching Fan Vids

Reading Fan Accounts

And viewing pictures of the concert...

I can be crazier that this

(I had been in that stage last week)

But let's not talk about it...

(Malu2~ Control2~)

But...

Super Junior, I Miss You

I'm now struggling hard

Saving money for the best event in my life

Keep that as a secret for now

When the time comes, I'll write about it

*wink2

=D

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REGRET is never a GOOD word

- anonymous -

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The Best Night Ever... SUPER JUNIOR SUPER SHOW II 100320

Salam and Peace to all...

SUPER JUNIOR SUPER SHOW II

20th March 2010

1900 hrs

Putra Stadium, Bukit Jalil

Well, this is the first time I went to a concert

(Concert Jom Heboh pun x penah gi tau.. Siyes!!!)

Ok... First time for me and my new friend Is

Knew her through FB

ELF united.. lol~

Since it was our 1st time

We don't really know if we should be there early in the morning

(which we should... lesson learnt)

Or in the afternoon or exactly before the entrance door is open

We arrive around 4pm and there's like billion of ELFs there.

It's the Sapphire Blue Ocean outside of the stadium

Standing for hours outside the stadium seems to be fine

But once I entered the stadium and standing in the Rockpitt area

(I'm in Rockpitt A)

I was like "Where the heck are they... Can't wait to see them"

All the patience gone just like that

I was lucky enough to get my camera pass the security *wink2

But not lucky enough to have my battery last till the end of the show *damn!!

Well, it's not everything that happened that night

Those who were there would know

So, I just right what I remember

(I remember lots of things but can't seem to put them into words)

- this is not about SuJu... when Iqwal come out after Thomas n Jack (for the opening act), me and the other ELFs around me was like... "Who is that guy?", "What is he doing here?" and bla... bla... bla... (Sorry Iqwal, we all tak baca newspaper, so x knal u)

- there are like lots of fan services that they gave to the ELFs expecially when SiWon lift up his shirt, everyone was like *fainting and *nosebleeding all around the stadium... Lol~

- My Hae is so cute yet so macho when he dance especially during his solo with Eunhyuk and during the Dance Battle *droll~

- ShinDong is so cute during Puff The Magic Dragon... My Hae is so cute (again) when he and E.Teuk tried to catch HeeChul with all the tricks... haish... really cute one =D

- SungMin is so sporting especially when he asked for the mini-torch from the ELFs and wore it just like us. Then after the got packet of mini-torch from other ELF, he wore in on every fingers at his left hand and then started throwing away the mini-torch.. I managed to catch one. (Still cannot believe how I managed to catch something so small yet I cannot catch the towel My Hae threw at us... *sigh)

- HeeChul is so obsessed with the windmill that he got from the ELF and start playing with it. When it broke down, again he was so obsessed fixing it, he didn't care about the other boys dancing and singing. Haha... he really has a thing for cute stuff...

- Kyuhyun is so cool whe he also wore the mini-torch during Shining Star... He sings so well it struck straight to everyone's heart... I was worried when the other ELFs start throwing mini-torch to him. Luckily not a single mini-torch hit him.. =D

- I'm so touched and almost cried (I managed to stop it, I don't usually cry in front of others :P ) when E.Teuk and My Hae cried during Shining Star... I can't turn my eyes away from My Hae when I saw his eyes filled with tears... He looks so sincere...

- Yesung... He seems to be sick throughout the concert. Yup.. I remember hearing some fans mentioning about that. But he still give us a lot that night. If we're not a very concern ELFs, we will think that there's nothing wrong with him. Kamsahamnida Oppa~ Oh, ya... love his smile and his small eyes... =P

- Henry is so fantastic when he played his violin. OMG!!! How did he managed to play the violin, dance and giving fan service at the same time... Yet everything was so PERFECT!!! I adore that a lot. During Don't Don, his sudden appearance made me... WOW!!!

- Zhou Mi... Am I blind or I really don't see him much on stage. (Tak puas tengok die). I thought he didn't come. Haha... And I like his expression when SiWon pour water to his back... Cute... SiWon... Don't do that la... Zhou Mi was trying to act macho there...

- E.Teuk is a great leader and always be. I was shocked by the news that he's having fever (Ok, out of topic). He's flawless... I just love his shyness during his solo performance. Remember.. He's blushing when the dancer do the sexy moves to him. And I was like "Don't kiss him!!!" when they were about to kiss (Luckily they don't)

- SiWon is as mentioned, the living work of art. I think his fans will always remember him, wearing the white suite n still showing his abs. Huhu... *melting~ And if HeeChul was obsessed with his windmill, SiWon is obsessed with his Korea flag. I think one of the ELF gave it to him b'coz i didn't see him with that flag before that. He even wore it like a Superman.. Ya... Hwaiting SuperSiWon!!!!

- Eunhyuk and his magical dance moves. He looks like a kid but when he dance... Made me speechless... He transformed. No wonder the others said that he is the best dancer in SuJu... (Don't worry My Hae, you are the number one dancer in my HEART)

- DongHae... My Hae... What can I write about him. Everything is beyond wordings. I cannot put all that into words. Haha... Although it is late. I think you'll know that you're reading DongHae's fanatic fan's blog. So, being bias is out of questions... =P Yaa.... I remember one thing. I never thought I can see My Hae back flip live in front of my eyes... But he did it. *fainting... *droll... *nosebleeding...

Haha... Pervert la you

(I'm saying this to myself ok)

Everything was PERFECT that night

It will be better if KiBum, HanKyul and KangIn was there too...

SUPER JUNIOR SARANG HAE

YONG WOON EE... SARANGHAMNIDA...

Fallen Angel LeeTeuk

Dangerous Cinderella HeeChul

Bubble Boy Yesung

Cutie Pie ShinDong

Ultimate Cuteness SungMin

Bejewelled Eunhyuk

*LOVE* Sexy Fishy DongHae *LOVE*

Living Work of Art SiWon

Loveable Blurness Ryeowook

Hottest Baby Kyuhyun

Henry & Zhou Mi

Sorry I didn't write in Korean. Don't have that software...

I'm blogging using my office lappy...

(so, understand why it is limited right)

And sorry for no photos.... Hasn't uploaded any of them yet

It's not that I don't have the time

I guess I used most of my time day-dreaming about them

Lol~

Any ELFs out there.. Please share DongHae's photos with me

Since my battery died (Hate that battery so much T_T)

I don't have photos of My Hae that much..

And I want photos of the others too... :D

ELFS... Let's share the LOVE

Hope SUPER JUNIOR will be back for SS3

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SJ + ELF = 1

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Now I Know...

Salam and Peace to All...

I had involved with two of my company's events

And our activities are really interesting

(Our activities usually involve $$$ CASH $$$)

I always got small amount only...

And previously I thought...

I'M NOT LUCKY...

So sad le...

Last night the thought comes across my mind

About why I don't have my luck with money

I mean during my company's event la...

Now I know...

I think the Al-Mighty decided my unlucky fate because

I won the money

I won't share it with the others

It's my nature...

MY MONEY IS MINE, AND MINE ONLY

As the others that won the money during the event

They usually spend the money to buy breakfast or lunch for us...

So nice of them isn't it...

See...

(Org tua2 slalu cakap... Org tamak slalu rugi)

Maybe someday, when I change...

I'll get better luck with money

Lol~

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Everything Happen For A Good Reason

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And You Called Yourself A Friend...

Salam and Peace to All...

It's just confusing how people admit that they are our friend

But they don't understand us at all

I thought friends are suppose to be...

Understanding, Caring, Considerate

But most of them appear to be opposite

When you admit that you are my friend

Especially when you said you are a good friend of mine

I expect you to understand me in and out

Without any need of me to word it out to you

When I'm in silence,

Know that I need my time alone

When I told you I'm down, 

Know that I need you to be there for me

I thought good friends are suppose to know all that

After all, that's the difference between you and the others

But you just appear to be the same

And I thought a friend accept you for who you are

Regardless of your strength and weakness

You're supposed to be free

To be yourself, just yourself...

But with you

There's always something about me to be changed

I'm not PERFECT and that's a FACT

How about accepting me for who I am?

Or just go and find yourself someone to be your ideal good friend

But when it's you we're talking about

I have to be understanding

I have to care

I have to be more considerate

Seems like you think that you're the only person in this world

That has a HEART

Enough already...

I'm tired of that

So don't expect me to be all nice to you

As I'm walking forward and leaving you behind

There's no place for friends with benefits

Call me selfish... I'm okay with that.

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The friend is a person who knows all about you,

And still likes you

- Elbert Hubbard, The Notebook, 1927 -

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